Nursery is Finished...All Childrens Tour

So, last week we had our last echo before our scheduled C/S date. New news -Dr said there *might* be a leaky value. He wasnt sure, and its hard to tell right now with her size and position.  Another good thing is that they are thinking that the heart defect is an isolated thing, and that the baby is growing well otherwise.

We got to tour All Childrens today, and I felt like we were all in good hands. Secure, Clean, Quiet, and the nurses and staff already knew OF Bella and her condition. I felt as if we have already been there before- which was comforting. Although, I did want to cry and was just anxious. In a few short weeks, that's where our baby will be! And i won't be able to run away! Now I feel like i've been looking at all this like it's something I'll deal with later. Now it IS later, and it's time to deal with it. And I'm just so nervous. I have so much guilt. When people ask me if I'm excited about the baby being born soon, I feel like saying, "excited about what? That I'm about to be scared out of my mind of what could happen?" I will be happy to finally meet our little girl and I realize how lucky we are... That it really can be so much worse. I want to tell her to stay in there forever, where she is safe!

We also met with the surgeon, and he was impressed that we've done our homework :)

Guess you can never REALLY be fully prepared.... but now that we are about 3 weeks away..... we are both as prepared as we can get, I think. I just hope my mommy heart is right and she will be ok.

Finished the nursery today.... thankful my son got to take part as well, we love it. I know Isabella will too.

Hospital Tour- Delivery

Had our hospital tour yesterday, and I must say.... I am very impressed! And very thankful. With all these setbacks we have had lately, it was nice to get out of the house and see where our little Isabella will be born. No matter what happens, I know she will receive the best of care... and that makes me happy. After smelling the hospital, and seeing all the equipment, I am getting a little nervous about the c-section. I just pray it all goes well and that we have a beautiful lil gal who's heart is not as bad as they had thought. We meet w/ the surgeon soon.... I hope I'm not having one of those emotional days  like I have been having lately. But, its inevitable.... I probably will. This is all so scary. To know your child's heart will never work properly.. is a feeling I cannot describe.

Bella, we are ready for you... your room is almost finished, clothes are clean and diapers are in abundance. We just hope we get to take you home. In my mommy heart-- I feel like you'll be just fine. I hope I'm right. One more month.

On a side note-
Praying for my cousin Matt's little angel, Camren. At only 7 weeks old, the Lord decided it was time for Camren to come into his Kingdom. My heart if hurting for them... but I know hes safe.

32 wk OB/GYN Appt.

 <--- Face & Lil arm!!

Doctor's appt. this morning went well. Has an U/S and Logan & Justin got to see her again! She was active and yawning like crazy. Chunky lil' cheeks (which Logan says she got from him lol... he is SO proud!) and long lil' toes. Oh man, she's got Justin's toes!! (hubby wears a size 15 LOL)

Anyways, appt. went well.... got sent to the hopsital for an NST test. When I got hooked up... reality kind of sunk in. OMG I am having a baby!! OMG I am having a C-Section!! OMG OMG OMG!!! LOL... kinda scary... and exciting. The smell of the hospital brought back all kinds of memories w/ Logan's LOOONG delivery... some painful but mostly exciting. She will be here before we know it. Our little family is growing and we are excited and nervous! In my mommy heart I feel like everything will be OK... still praying. Once more ECHO , Hospital Tour and Meeting w. the Pedi. Surgeon in 2 weeks. Thanks for your love and support.